Won't Give Up.

I've been feeling miserable the past few weeks, and I'm sick and tired of being in that sort of mood. OK so my plan is to forget those who have misjudged me, they don't know me as well as I hoped and thought that they did, and they sure don't know me as well as I know myself. Now when I say forget them, I don't mean I am cutting them out of my life that's just ridiculous. 

What I should have written rather was let go of what they've said and move on. Life is never going to be perfect I'm very much aware of this fact, and I do realize that it's going to be a constant battle for me to get the things I want out of life, which is OK. That's what is going to help me learn more, and more as I carry on in life, and that's just the way it goes.

So my promise to myself is to just let go. Focus on me, and my happiness, and don't worry so much about what everyone else is saying about me. That being said, the relationships I do have with people mean a lot to me, so I'm not trying to say that peoples opinions don't matter to me, I just refuse to continue carrying the negativity, it's not doing me any good. So if anyone has anything nice and positive to say to me I'm all ears. But just be warned if you say something negative about me, I will shut it out, and fully ignore that you've even said something. Selfish? Rude? Maybe, but I just don't care anymore.

It feels like my happiness doesn't belong to me anymore, and this is going to be my way of taking it back. After all it is me and only me that should decide how I feel about things.

Back to Familiar Places

Hello All,

I've decided to come back to dear old blogspot. Now I have nothing against wordpress, but thought if I'm going to carry on with my blogging adventures, I'd like to come back to this nice familiar blog, that I started with, this is where my blog began, and I feel that it should end (not today, but in the FAR future one day).

Most of you, or all of you should know by now that Dave and I have gotten back together. We had a nice 2 or 3 week break from our relationship, where we built a foundation of friendship which was muchly needed. I'd go into further details about things, but I want to try and keep my relationship as personal as I can from now on. I know it's ok to talk about it, but I also now no longer feel the need to share every single detail with everyone. The relationship is between me and him, and I'd like to keep it that way. All I am going to say is that things are wonderful and we are very much in love!

Moving on from my relationship status, I believe most or all of you also know that I lost my job last month and have recently started working at Second Cup as a barista. I hate every single second of my new job, and although I know I've only had four shifts, I really don't like the fact that I'm now back at the spot of forcing myself out of bed to go to a job that I hate just so I can pay my bills. I sincerely hope that something with a better pay, and that I will find more enjoyable comes my way soon. I have been applying for a lot of bilingual jobs, trying to use my French to my advantage but so far am having no luck there. 

The game plan for next year is to get my GED, take either an Admin course or a Dental Receptionist course (I had my mind set on Dental Receptionist, but am now starting to think Dave is right and that I can do something more with my Bilingualism...Bilingualism, is that even a word?!), and take Driver's Ed to finally get my drivers licence. Dave and I also want to take a first aid course together, and at the end of February we'll be heading to Vegas for four nights, courtesy of Dave's lovely parents, all of his family will be coming, and his brother Stephen will be getting married during our time there. I'm so excited about the trip and cannot wait to go. Needless to say I'm actually very much looking forward to 2014 and I hope that it's actually going to be as good as I'm planning it to be.

That's all for tonight, I should probably get some shut-eye, have to work in the morning!

New Beginnings. (Part 2)

Today I made the official choice that it's time for a new beginning, time to remember my dreams and discover new ones. Time to start the long, hard process of moving on. Part of me feels as though for Dave, letting go of me, and letting go of our relationship is easy, but I really don't know that. I have no idea how he's feeling about all this, and it will do me no good to sit around and have negative thoughts about it all. 

I have thoroughly enjoyed my time writing blogs here, but as a part of my new beginnings I have set up a new blog. Hence this one having part 2 in the title, though in reality I suppose this one is part 1, after all I am writing it first. None the less this is my farewell to blogspot, but not my farewell to blogging all together.

To new beginnings, possibilities, dreams, and a positive outlook.

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Life.

This has truly been one of the hardest years of my life. I cannot say that I will be sad to see it go, and ring in the new year of 2014. Here's to hoping 2014 has much better things in store for me!

So to start January was okay, I moved into this place with Hayley and Stacey at the end of the month, and things were looking ok. I was still going to the gym at the time with a personal trainer and shedding the pounds I had wanted to shed for years. I was turning into a confident young woman that I never thought I would be.

February, was when for the first time in my (at the time) 23 years of life I started dating, yes I am well aware it took me longer than pretty much everyone else, but hey. My first attempt failed miserably, and I was left feeling like a complete chump, second attempt failed as well, but was much easier to move on from, no offence at all intended to that person, just one date isn't exactly hard to get over, if we're being honest. Third attempt; Dave, my first ever serious relationship. Voila I had hit the jackpot, he was nice, sweet, seemed to like me, and things were moving along; that is until we hit our first of many bumps in the road. None the less I fell in love, I wanted it to work, I fought for it, I started picturing a different future, molding it into something that could work with him, letting go of my dreams. I never did manage to let go of my fear of actually talking to someone when things were wrong though, and quite recently that's what brought our relationship to an end for the final time. 

I will miss him. I already do, and I know that without a doubt I will never forget, he was and always will be my FIRST love. But maybe one day in the future I'll be able to let go, to move on, maybe somewhere out there is my TRUE love. 

Aside from that there was also my gallbladder surgery on Wednesday (which also just happens to be the morning of the break-up), and then the cherry on top having collections after me. The stress, and pain both physical and emotional are immense right now, but with the help and support of my family and friends, I will make it through. Life will get better, and I will carry on!

Emotions.

I am shocked it's taken me this many days to sit and write a blog. I haven't exactly been doing very much with my time, yet somehow it seems blog writing suddenly didn't feel like something to do. Thankfully tonight I need the outlet so here I am.

I am sure everyone knows this already as it's all over my facebook, but seeing as it hasn't been announced in a blog yet, I'm going to say it anyways; Dave is coming home early. I am so very happy, and excited, and just cannot wait to see him again. He will be flying home on the 5th of September rather then the 19th now. His time in Vietnam is going well however, he's finding Saigon too busy and intimidating so he will be traveling to another city in Vietnam for his last week there. 

I've had a very strange day emotionally. I woke up feeling fantastic, and that feeling carried on until about 2pm, when I suddenly felt run down, and exhausted, so I went to my room to have a nap, which never happened because my brain just wouldn't shut-up, and I lied in bed restlessly until 4 something, after which I came online and started catching up on the mass amount of video's I've missed on Carrie Fletcher's youtube. I adore her, here's the link to her youtube for anyone who's interested, she is an amazing, young woman, https://www.youtube.com/user/ItsWayPastMyBedTime/videos

Dave and I emailed back and forth for quite some time, and are still talking now, sort of, whenever he manages to check his email whilst he's doing things with his day. Cannot believe it's already tomorrow morning for him, that thought is so weird to me. I've tried watching movies and shows on netflix but lose interest not even half hour into them, and find myself sitting on my bed still watching Carrie Fletcher video's and emailing with Dave, however for some odd reason my mood is very blah.

Perhaps I will turn on some music have a little dance around my room, and then figure out what to do with the rest of my evening from there.

Until next time :)

Good Mood.

I am finally okay with the fact that Dave is gone, it may have taken me a week but at least I got there. I do still miss him, but I know he will be back home, and that's really all that matters in the end. 

He did have a bit of a hiccup on his trip with the friend he is over there with so on the 21st he will be flying over to Vietnam on his own for 2 or 3 weeks, and then he will head back to Korea for his last week or so of his vacation. I am sure that he will still have a great holiday though, which will be good for him. Although through our conversation this morning he and I both decided 5 weeks was way too long, and he won't be doing that again, he also said he won't be doing any traveling for a while after he comes home because he will for sure have it out of his system.

In other news I don't think I ever announced my surgery date here on my blog. I am going in on September 25th, I am so excited to finally get this over with and not have to live in fear of what I'm eating. However that being said the fact I am undergoing a surgery makes me very nervous at the same time. I need to be at the hospital about 2 hours before my surgery time, then the surgery it's self is usually about an hour, and then I think I need to stay in the hospital for another 3 or so hours, before I am sent home, but I will be home the same day I go in. It's a full 6 week recovery surgery, but after 2 weeks I will be allowed to return to work on light duty. 

I think that about covers everything for now, so until next time :)

No Win Situation.

How annoying is it that because I miss Dave, I can't wait for the little emails we've been sending each other because then I get to hear from him, but that at the same time those emails make me miss him more. 

Remind me to kick his butt when he gets home for leaving me here alone for 5 weeks. If it was just 2 weeks I think I'd be quite a bit better, because then hey guess what I would be seeing him in just another week. But no in reality I will be seeing him again in 34 days, how lame!

I know for sure I well be preoccupied next weekend, but this weekend however I fear may just drag along. So very happy its the weekend though, it was a long work week. Hopefully time starts moving along swifter come Monday, I won't ask that the weekend goes by fast, coz 1 that means back to work already and 2 I just don't think it will. 

I am debating having a massive Lord of the Rings fest weekend, and watching the first 3 and then watching The Hobbit Part 1 as well...but I just don't know if I am in the mood, so may just pop on Fellowship of the Ring tomorrow morning, rather than tonight.

What to do tonight then? Hmm I guess I will come up with something. Have already cleaned the bathroom, suppose I should grab my clean laundry from downstairs and put that away...but then what???

Until next time :)

Keeping Busy.

Today has been a good and bad day. Work went really well, and I managed to get boosted up to getting paid per mat rather than hourly, massively great news for my finances which were already looking good from the hourly wage at my new job. Yay!

I also managed to have a good 30 minute long back and forth email conversation going with Dave, which was quite nice. He seems to be having a great time in Korea, and I am really glad he is enjoying his trip. 

Meanwhile however I have yet to manage to stop constantly thinking and fussing over the fact he isn't here. Its driving me crazy, I just cannot seem to get over the fact that I won't be seeing him until September 20th. I keep on telling myself its only a short time, and that before I know it he will be home again. Which is true, only the before I know will actually be verrrry slow if I keep up this bloody negative attitude. He is away on holiday, and I need to just accept that, and carry on with my days. Yes I am allowed to think of him, and miss him, but that cannot be all that I worry about 24/7 it might just kill me if I do. 

So game plan, positive attitude in toe. If I feel the need to just vent or get super lonely hey guess what, my blog is here for a reason. So don't be surprised if you start seeing a new post every evening. I don't see this as a bad thing. I see this as something to keep me busy. Keeping busy is going to be a must. I think the next 35 days will be filled with good music, writing a lot, playing games on facebook, talking to my mum maybe slightly more than usual (and I am a pure mama's girl so I already talk to her a lot as is), whining, over-thinking, walking, dancing, laughing, crying, movie watching, book reading, picture taking, and discovering just how strong I actually am.

Until next time (...tomorrow?) :)


 

Tough Days.

Dave is officially in Korea, he got there at 11pm (my time) last night. I recieved my first email from him at 3am this morning letting me know he was there and how things went getting there, etc. I then got a small second email today at 6:30am just to let me know they had gotten a room, which apparently really sucks and I am meant to be getting photos of just how bad it is at some point. It is currently already 8:30am tomorrow in Korea, this 15 hour time difference is going to drive me mental, but I am so very glad I did get to hear from him today. Only one day down, 36 more to go. Oi vey, this is going to be very long. 

I however am making myself a very lame list of tasks to do everyday just so that I am kept busy, and not lounging around thinking about how he isn't home. Hopefully this list works out, but I'm not usually one who can stick to silly things like that, especially ones like this that literally have things such as "Have a LOTR marathon day" on it. 

I do however know what I will be doing on September 19th after work. I have decided I am gonna go get my hair done, then get gel nails and a pedicure done, so that I look extra nice when I finally see him again on September 20th. 

Well I guess that's about it for today, until next time! :)

Not Goodbye Just See You Soon.

This weekend was the last weekend I got to spend with my boyfriend for a month and a half. He's off to Korea on Tuesday, and as he was busy getting all the last minute things done, and spending time with his family today, and will be spending the night at his parents tomorrow so his mum can drive him to the airport on Tuesday morning, we said our goodbyes last night. 

It was a lot harder for me to say goodbye then I had thought it would be. I knew I was going to find it difficult but what I didn't know was that I was going to cry on his shoulder while he comforted me and reassured me he'd be home before I knew it. 

He got me this very cute Scottie teddy, as he knows I really want one, and so that I would have something to cuddle when I miss him. He told me that my puppy would keep me company while he's away, how thoughtful. 

Now I just hope that I manage to hang in there, be strong, and keep busy until I see him again on September 20th.

 

Finding Happiness.

Well I have a new job, hopefully soon I will be all caught up with my bills. What a relief that will be. I will finally be able to get a new laptop soon as well, and a new bed, and an ipod as well. Oh the many joys of realising money will soon no longer be a huge stress. Rent, and utilities, and food will finally be easy thing to pay for, and I'll have money for the rest of my bills, and be able to save up for things I want, and trips, and actually be able to just have savings set aside for possible rainy days. I feel so much better now.

Finally get to see a surgeon for my gallstones as well, my consultation is on the 8th of this month, so on Thursday, then I will finally have a surgery date, oh happy days, it seems as though all things are coming together, so much to be thankful for at the moment.

On a slightly less happy note however, my boyfriend is sick with a bad chest infection and with only 12 days left until his five week Korea trip, I am finding it hard that I can't be spending this time with him, however the important thing is that he gets plenty of rest and gets rid of this chest infection. Hopefully soon he will be feeling himself again, leave my boyfriend alone infection. Haha!

I have been seriously thinking over the idea of finding a Scottie I can adopt/buy as I do really want one, but not sure what I will be doing there quite yet. I was looking today but it seems nearly impossible to find Scottie's in the area I am living in at the moment, so in any case I will have to wait. 

I have also decided that the trip I am going to take will be in Ireland, and England. Mainly I'll be stopping over in England so I can visit with my friends and catch up, also I do love my England, and missing it terribly. But I would also love to visit a Country I have never been to and since Ireland is so close to England, and I have always wanted to go, I shall!

That's it for now, be back another day.

Little Speck of Light in the Gray.

Well it's official I will be getting surgery. Two months of waiting, and I decided to just book an appointment with my doctor. Yesterday I went and saw him, and told him I still hadn't had the follow up with the internal specialist to then be referred to a surgeon, and that my gallstones were still a big issue. Thankfully that led to me getting to see the internal specialist today, who has finally referred me to a surgeon, he said I should be expecting a call from them soon to book an appointment, but that my appointment may not be until September, hey at least I am one step closer, so at the moment no complaints from me. 

I spent a big portion of my day job applying, and mulling over career choices. I am going to keep on trying to get a receptionist job, or something of the like, and hopefully soon will be able to go back to school. This morning I was leaning towards taking an ECE (Early Childhood Education) course, and becoming a preschool teacher, or did I want to take a Travel & Tourism course so I could be a Travel Agent and get those sick deals on flights? 

The more and more I thought about working, and being happy the more I realized I need to try and see if I can't develop my hobbies/likes into actual careers. Do I plan on diving in head first? no. I think I'll just start off by dipping my toes in the water. So the two hobbies I chose are photography, and writing. Of course I plan on still working full time whilst developing these skills further, and seeing where they can take me. 

I am hoping to get a few photo sessions in August for Back to School to start myself off there, but we shall see. As far as writing is concerned I would like to take a Creative Writing course to help me with developing and becoming comfortable, and confident with my writing abilities. I have thousands of stories running about in my mind, and I would love to be able to share some of them. 

I think that about covers my update for the last while, but I shall be back soon. 

Choices.

Well Amber is officially back in Ontario. I miss her so much already and it hasn't even been 24 hours yet. I guess it’s just going to be an adjustment. It will take time to get used to not having her here anymore. That being said I am sure she is happy to be home and with her family again, which is all that matters, and hey, it’s not like I will never get to see her again.

In other news, it turns out all is okay with my liver, just waiting on my consultation with the surgeon now, still no date for that, waiting sucks, but at least I am slightly closer to a surgery date.

I very clearly did not get the job at the bank, which is a shame I think it would have been a brilliant job, but all I can do is keep on trying. Here’s to hoping I find a full time job that pays a decent wage soon.

I hope to be able to take my GED exam at some point this year, and I am currently trying to figure out what career path I want to take. What job do I want to do forever? So far, no jobs have ever intrigued me enough for me to be like, “Hey I want that to be my life long job.” but let us hope that I will find a career path that I am willing to take soon. It’s time for this 24 year old to be a more responsible, financially stable, mature (ok well that’ll never happen) adult.

Harder.

I feel defeated. Trying to keep a happy, positive attitude seems to be getting more and more difficult for me lately, and I've become far more emotional then I care to be. It just feels like my life was finally heading in the right direction, I felt I had everything sorted out, and I knew where I wanted things to go, and then as usual something happened that’s making everything fall apart. Aside from my job only being part time and not paying a decent enough wage for me to actually live off of, I suddenly find myself needing to find new living arrangements for August. I can understand why this is happening, and am in no way angry with others, but at the same time I feel like crap. When is my life ever actually going to be okay for more then a few months? I’m not expecting life to be a walk in the park, but I would like for once to just be able to sit and relax on a bench and enjoy the view for a longer period of time. I have been trying so hard to stay positive and not let the stress of it all consume me, but the past few days I've been an emotional wreck, and it just isn't fair for those around me. I am sure that in time everything will have a way of sorting it’s self out, it always does in the end. I just hope that it’s sooner rather than later. 

Waiting.

Still no news from the doctor yet, I will hopefully hear back from him soon. I am dying for my results so I can finally have my consultation with a surgeon, so that I can get my surgery date, and then finally my surgery. It feels an odd thing to actually be looking forward to, but I honestly cannot wait until I finally get the surgery. Gallstones suck. 

On another note I did an online video interview to work at a bank today, so fingers crossed that I will make it to the next level of their interviewing process, as that job would help out my financial situation immensely. Send me all the good luck vibes you can, it would be muchly appreciated.

I also have a severe case of the traveling blues, and really want to be able to start saving up so that I can go on a holiday somewhere. I am dying to just get away. I do really want to head back to the UK so I can see all of my friends over there, but at the same time would love to go somewhere I have never been yet. Must also commence operation renew passport, so that I can actually leave the Country. 

I think that's all for now, shall be back with another update soon. 

Throw a Stone.

Its been quite a while since my last blog post, pardon the delay. Blogging is something I definitely want to get into more, especially given so much is going on in my life lately...okay well maybe not too much but I feel I definitely have lots of things to be blogging about.


Some of you may remember reading a few blogs about my first ever break-up that have since then been removed. On a romantic note, I am in a relationship with my "ex" who is now officially my boyfriend its been a little over a month now, and things are going quite well in that department. 

I am not sure if you're all aware of the fact that I have gallstones. If you're not entirely sure what gallstones are, then let me fill you in a little. It's not anything like kidney stones, and the only true way to "cure" or get rid of gallstone attacks is by getting surgery to remove your gallbladder. Your gallbladder is what helps break down fatty-acids etc, for your stomach. It is not a necessary organ, but definitely a helpful one WHEN doing its job properly. Very painful however when you're unfortunate enough to have gallstones. If you care for any further information feel free to follow this link: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gallstone which has me feeling terrified.

I am very impatiently awaiting for some blood test results for my liver, as my liver enzymes are/were quite high and they want to ensure its because of my gallstones, and not because of something more serious like Heptatis, Celiac Disease, etc. I shall hopefully be hearing back from the internal specialist within a week, about these results, then if all is good (fingers crossed) I can finally have a consultation with a surgeon, and then the real waiting for my surgery day begins. 

The thought that it may very well take until next year to get my surgery has me feeling completely, totally, and utterly, frustrated. I have been having quite a few issues with my gallstones the past few months, although I have been trying to keep a very close eye to what I am eating. That being said since I carry on having issues, and the last 3 days have been miserable, I am putting myself on a very strict gallbladder diet, which I am not looking forward to in the least, so here is to hoping that I will be getting my surgery sooner than I feel I will be. 

Things I have already cut out of my diet are peanut butter, and cheese, however I am now cutting out ALL dairy, and will be living off of, fruit, vegetables, rice, and liquid forms of food, like broths, and soups (non creamy soups of course), I will also be trying to have a smoothie a day as a meal replacement, which I will be making with soy milk (I have checked up on that and it is ok with gallstones), berries, a banana, and a bit of juice.

If going out somewhere for dinner I will ensure that whatever I order is very gallstone friendly, which limits the place I can eat out at, but that is sadly how things MUST go until my surgery as I really don't want to live in pain anymore.

That is all for today, will be back with an update soon.

February.

Hey Guys, 

It's been quite a while since I last wrote a blog, I cannot believe how quiet I have been especially with everything that has happened in the past month.

I am obviously in my new place living with Hayley and Stacey and that is going quite well. Money is a bit tight for me but I wasn't really expecting it not to be, so it's okay. We will soon be joined by a fourth roommate for a while. My friend Amber is moving down from Ontario, and will be living with us for a few months. This has me very excited!!

I have strangely had a month filled with dating fiasco's and heartbreak. That's a completely brand new world to me. Not sure what to make of it, but a big part of me feels like it's really not worth all the fuss, and that being single might just be a whole lot simpler, and less painful. However that being said, I know that I don't want to be single. I want a relationship, I want to fall in love, and I want a future with someone.

I have been trying to go to the gym regularly, and have recently decided to go five days a week. Today was meant to be my fourth day in a row but I am feeling very lazy, and run down, and therefor am giving myself this day of rest, tomorrow morning I will get up and go to the gym for an hour of strength before work, and then Saturday I'll go for my fifth day which will be cardio.

I am hoping to be able to purchase a few more sessions with Rily soon, coz although I am able to do the strength days on my own, I find it difficult to be as motivated without my trainer.

I think that is all that I have to say for today, but I will hopefully be back soon!
Byeee :) 

Turning a Page.

So I am officially moving out of my sisters basement. My friend Hayley and her Roommate Stacey asked me if I would like to look at some places and move in with them, as the lease for their place was ending in February, so I of course said yes. Well we've found a place and will be moving into it on SUNDAY! This has me excited, scared, and nervous all at once.

I have gotten to know Stacey a bit through the past few weeks, and definitely think we will all get along for the most part, so for that I'm not too stressed out. I think it's more stress about money then anything else. It's been a while since I've had to pay rent, and the fact that I'm now going to have to very soon, is terrifying. I have been getting quite good hours, and decent pay so should be fine on the financial front, but still find it very stressful, because that is just the way I am.

I have applied for two Travel Consultant positions so far, but have heard nothing back, which is a bummer. But hopefully more chances to get work in that area will come up soon, and I'll manage to get my foot in the door. 

Tomorrow is my last training session with Rily, which makes me very sad. I have been enjoying the gym much more then I thought I would, and just do not feel ready to not have my trainer anymore, so hopefully with any luck I will be able to purchase some more sessions with him in near future. 

I suppose that's sadly it for now, hopefully I will have more to blog about soon.
Byee! :)

A New Year.

Hey guys, 

It is officially 2013. How mental? 2012 went quite fast, I suppose it does help that a lot happened within the year of 2012 and I think I can safely say it is a year that won't be forgotten. Highlights are meeting The Wanted twice, and getting to meet Amber who will now be a best friend for my life time. As well as a lot of mistakes being made in the past year, I like to think everything happens for a reason, and feel I was led to right here and now in this moment and I couldn't be more thankful for that.

The game plan is to finally go and get my health card switched over within the next few weeks, after which I will hopefully manage to get in for a check-up with a doctor. I also need to sort out a way to take my GED test to get my High School Diploma, and save up to move into my own place. It would help me out a bunch if I knew someone who wanted a roommate. I've only ever done the roomshare thing twice, and it's not something I'm quite keen going back into come the spring, hence why I would much prefer living with someone I know. 

I hope to also get back behind the wheel of a car this year, and finish learning how to drive, and who knows perhaps come the end of the year I will have my licence. That seems so scary to me. I've also been thinking a lot more of college courses and trying to figure out which would be best for me to take, I know I was thinking very seriously about becoming a secretary not so long ago. But lately the more I think of that, the more I feel like it just isn't the right profession for me. I'm now leaning more towards taking a travel and tourism course, and perhaps trying to get a job as a travel consultant. I also think I'm going to look into some creative writing courses and see if that helps me in finally managing to write an idea I've had for a book since I was 17, that I just cannot seem to get right every time I try to write it.

The movie industry is always something that's intrigued me as well, and something I know I would love working in, films are my favorite thing in the whole world. I just love being able to see stories brought to life, and particular movies like The Hobbit (which I watched again tonight) really get me thinking that's what I should be doing. The thing about pursuing that career is that I would clearly want to be successful, and the thing about success in that career is that it often comes with the price of fame, and privacy is something I just don't think I'm willing to let go of in my life.

Perhaps a job behind the camera would be better suited for me, and on that note lastly but not least I also want to take some sort of photography course in the future perhaps. But this is all just thoughts floating around in my head, and so far nothing is coming together. So I guess I'll just have to see where life takes me.

Happy New Year to you all!!
:)