Well Amber is officially back in Ontario. I miss her so much already and it hasn't even been 24 hours yet. I guess it’s just going to be an adjustment. It will take time to get used to not having her here anymore. That being said I am sure she is happy to be home and with her family again, which is all that matters, and hey, it’s not like I will never get to see her again.
In other news, it turns out all is okay with my liver, just waiting on my consultation with the surgeon now, still no date for that, waiting sucks, but at least I am slightly closer to a surgery date.
I very clearly did not get the job at the bank, which is a shame I think it would have been a brilliant job, but all I can do is keep on trying. Here’s to hoping I find a full time job that pays a decent wage soon.
I hope to be able to take my GED exam at some point this year, and I am currently trying to figure out what career path I want to take. What job do I want to do forever? So far, no jobs have ever intrigued me enough for me to be like, “Hey I want that to be my life long job.” but let us hope that I will find a career path that I am willing to take soon. It’s time for this 24 year old to be a more responsible, financially stable, mature (ok well that’ll never happen) adult.
I feel defeated. Trying to keep a happy, positive attitude seems to be getting more and more difficult for me lately, and I've become far more emotional then I care to be. It just feels like my life was finally heading in the right direction, I felt I had everything sorted out, and I knew where I wanted things to go, and then as usual something happened that’s making everything fall apart. Aside from my job only being part time and not paying a decent enough wage for me to actually live off of, I suddenly find myself needing to find new living arrangements for August. I can understand why this is happening, and am in no way angry with others, but at the same time I feel like crap. When is my life ever actually going to be okay for more then a few months? I’m not expecting life to be a walk in the park, but I would like for once to just be able to sit and relax on a bench and enjoy the view for a longer period of time. I have been trying so hard to stay positive and not let the stress of it all consume me, but the past few days I've been an emotional wreck, and it just isn't fair for those around me. I am sure that in time everything will have a way of sorting it’s self out, it always does in the end. I just hope that it’s sooner rather than later.
Still no news from the doctor yet, I will hopefully hear back from him soon. I am dying for my results so I can finally have my consultation with a surgeon, so that I can get my surgery date, and then finally my surgery. It feels an odd thing to actually be looking forward to, but I honestly cannot wait until I finally get the surgery. Gallstones suck.
On another note I did an online video interview to work at a bank today, so fingers crossed that I will make it to the next level of their interviewing process, as that job would help out my financial situation immensely. Send me all the good luck vibes you can, it would be muchly appreciated.
I also have a severe case of the traveling blues, and really want to be able to start saving up so that I can go on a holiday somewhere. I am dying to just get away. I do really want to head back to the UK so I can see all of my friends over there, but at the same time would love to go somewhere I have never been yet. Must also commence operation renew passport, so that I can actually leave the Country.
I think that's all for now, shall be back with another update soon.
Its been quite a while since my last blog post, pardon the delay. Blogging is something I definitely want to get into more, especially given so much is going on in my life lately...okay well maybe not too much but I feel I definitely have lots of things to be blogging about.
Some of you may remember reading a few blogs about my first ever break-up that have since then been removed. On a romantic note, I am in a relationship with my "ex" who is now officially my boyfriend its been a little over a month now, and things are going quite well in that department.
I am not sure if you're all aware of the fact that I have gallstones. If you're not entirely sure what gallstones are, then let me fill you in a little. It's not anything like kidney stones, and the only true way to "cure" or get rid of gallstone attacks is by getting surgery to remove your gallbladder. Your gallbladder is what helps break down fatty-acids etc, for your stomach. It is not a necessary organ, but definitely a helpful one WHEN doing its job properly. Very painful however when you're unfortunate enough to have gallstones. If you care for any further information feel free to follow this link: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gallstone which has me feeling terrified.
I am very impatiently awaiting for some blood test results for my liver, as my liver enzymes are/were quite high and they want to ensure its because of my gallstones, and not because of something more serious like Heptatis, Celiac Disease, etc. I shall hopefully be hearing back from the internal specialist within a week, about these results, then if all is good (fingers crossed) I can finally have a consultation with a surgeon, and then the real waiting for my surgery day begins.
The thought that it may very well take until next year to get my surgery has me feeling completely, totally, and utterly, frustrated. I have been having quite a few issues with my gallstones the past few months, although I have been trying to keep a very close eye to what I am eating. That being said since I carry on having issues, and the last 3 days have been miserable, I am putting myself on a very strict gallbladder diet, which I am not looking forward to in the least, so here is to hoping that I will be getting my surgery sooner than I feel I will be.
Things I have already cut out of my diet are peanut butter, and cheese, however I am now cutting out ALL dairy, and will be living off of, fruit, vegetables, rice, and liquid forms of food, like broths, and soups (non creamy soups of course), I will also be trying to have a smoothie a day as a meal replacement, which I will be making with soy milk (I have checked up on that and it is ok with gallstones), berries, a banana, and a bit of juice.
If going out somewhere for dinner I will ensure that whatever I order is very gallstone friendly, which limits the place I can eat out at, but that is sadly how things MUST go until my surgery as I really don't want to live in pain anymore.
That is all for today, will be back with an update soon.
