Emotions.

I am shocked it's taken me this many days to sit and write a blog. I haven't exactly been doing very much with my time, yet somehow it seems blog writing suddenly didn't feel like something to do. Thankfully tonight I need the outlet so here I am.

I am sure everyone knows this already as it's all over my facebook, but seeing as it hasn't been announced in a blog yet, I'm going to say it anyways; Dave is coming home early. I am so very happy, and excited, and just cannot wait to see him again. He will be flying home on the 5th of September rather then the 19th now. His time in Vietnam is going well however, he's finding Saigon too busy and intimidating so he will be traveling to another city in Vietnam for his last week there. 

I've had a very strange day emotionally. I woke up feeling fantastic, and that feeling carried on until about 2pm, when I suddenly felt run down, and exhausted, so I went to my room to have a nap, which never happened because my brain just wouldn't shut-up, and I lied in bed restlessly until 4 something, after which I came online and started catching up on the mass amount of video's I've missed on Carrie Fletcher's youtube. I adore her, here's the link to her youtube for anyone who's interested, she is an amazing, young woman, https://www.youtube.com/user/ItsWayPastMyBedTime/videos

Dave and I emailed back and forth for quite some time, and are still talking now, sort of, whenever he manages to check his email whilst he's doing things with his day. Cannot believe it's already tomorrow morning for him, that thought is so weird to me. I've tried watching movies and shows on netflix but lose interest not even half hour into them, and find myself sitting on my bed still watching Carrie Fletcher video's and emailing with Dave, however for some odd reason my mood is very blah.

Perhaps I will turn on some music have a little dance around my room, and then figure out what to do with the rest of my evening from there.

Until next time :)

Good Mood.

I am finally okay with the fact that Dave is gone, it may have taken me a week but at least I got there. I do still miss him, but I know he will be back home, and that's really all that matters in the end. 

He did have a bit of a hiccup on his trip with the friend he is over there with so on the 21st he will be flying over to Vietnam on his own for 2 or 3 weeks, and then he will head back to Korea for his last week or so of his vacation. I am sure that he will still have a great holiday though, which will be good for him. Although through our conversation this morning he and I both decided 5 weeks was way too long, and he won't be doing that again, he also said he won't be doing any traveling for a while after he comes home because he will for sure have it out of his system.

In other news I don't think I ever announced my surgery date here on my blog. I am going in on September 25th, I am so excited to finally get this over with and not have to live in fear of what I'm eating. However that being said the fact I am undergoing a surgery makes me very nervous at the same time. I need to be at the hospital about 2 hours before my surgery time, then the surgery it's self is usually about an hour, and then I think I need to stay in the hospital for another 3 or so hours, before I am sent home, but I will be home the same day I go in. It's a full 6 week recovery surgery, but after 2 weeks I will be allowed to return to work on light duty. 

I think that about covers everything for now, so until next time :)

No Win Situation.

How annoying is it that because I miss Dave, I can't wait for the little emails we've been sending each other because then I get to hear from him, but that at the same time those emails make me miss him more. 

Remind me to kick his butt when he gets home for leaving me here alone for 5 weeks. If it was just 2 weeks I think I'd be quite a bit better, because then hey guess what I would be seeing him in just another week. But no in reality I will be seeing him again in 34 days, how lame!

I know for sure I well be preoccupied next weekend, but this weekend however I fear may just drag along. So very happy its the weekend though, it was a long work week. Hopefully time starts moving along swifter come Monday, I won't ask that the weekend goes by fast, coz 1 that means back to work already and 2 I just don't think it will. 

I am debating having a massive Lord of the Rings fest weekend, and watching the first 3 and then watching The Hobbit Part 1 as well...but I just don't know if I am in the mood, so may just pop on Fellowship of the Ring tomorrow morning, rather than tonight.

What to do tonight then? Hmm I guess I will come up with something. Have already cleaned the bathroom, suppose I should grab my clean laundry from downstairs and put that away...but then what???

Until next time :)

Keeping Busy.

Today has been a good and bad day. Work went really well, and I managed to get boosted up to getting paid per mat rather than hourly, massively great news for my finances which were already looking good from the hourly wage at my new job. Yay!

I also managed to have a good 30 minute long back and forth email conversation going with Dave, which was quite nice. He seems to be having a great time in Korea, and I am really glad he is enjoying his trip. 

Meanwhile however I have yet to manage to stop constantly thinking and fussing over the fact he isn't here. Its driving me crazy, I just cannot seem to get over the fact that I won't be seeing him until September 20th. I keep on telling myself its only a short time, and that before I know it he will be home again. Which is true, only the before I know will actually be verrrry slow if I keep up this bloody negative attitude. He is away on holiday, and I need to just accept that, and carry on with my days. Yes I am allowed to think of him, and miss him, but that cannot be all that I worry about 24/7 it might just kill me if I do. 

So game plan, positive attitude in toe. If I feel the need to just vent or get super lonely hey guess what, my blog is here for a reason. So don't be surprised if you start seeing a new post every evening. I don't see this as a bad thing. I see this as something to keep me busy. Keeping busy is going to be a must. I think the next 35 days will be filled with good music, writing a lot, playing games on facebook, talking to my mum maybe slightly more than usual (and I am a pure mama's girl so I already talk to her a lot as is), whining, over-thinking, walking, dancing, laughing, crying, movie watching, book reading, picture taking, and discovering just how strong I actually am.

Until next time (...tomorrow?) :)


 

Tough Days.

Dave is officially in Korea, he got there at 11pm (my time) last night. I recieved my first email from him at 3am this morning letting me know he was there and how things went getting there, etc. I then got a small second email today at 6:30am just to let me know they had gotten a room, which apparently really sucks and I am meant to be getting photos of just how bad it is at some point. It is currently already 8:30am tomorrow in Korea, this 15 hour time difference is going to drive me mental, but I am so very glad I did get to hear from him today. Only one day down, 36 more to go. Oi vey, this is going to be very long. 

I however am making myself a very lame list of tasks to do everyday just so that I am kept busy, and not lounging around thinking about how he isn't home. Hopefully this list works out, but I'm not usually one who can stick to silly things like that, especially ones like this that literally have things such as "Have a LOTR marathon day" on it. 

I do however know what I will be doing on September 19th after work. I have decided I am gonna go get my hair done, then get gel nails and a pedicure done, so that I look extra nice when I finally see him again on September 20th. 

Well I guess that's about it for today, until next time! :)

Not Goodbye Just See You Soon.

This weekend was the last weekend I got to spend with my boyfriend for a month and a half. He's off to Korea on Tuesday, and as he was busy getting all the last minute things done, and spending time with his family today, and will be spending the night at his parents tomorrow so his mum can drive him to the airport on Tuesday morning, we said our goodbyes last night. 

It was a lot harder for me to say goodbye then I had thought it would be. I knew I was going to find it difficult but what I didn't know was that I was going to cry on his shoulder while he comforted me and reassured me he'd be home before I knew it. 

He got me this very cute Scottie teddy, as he knows I really want one, and so that I would have something to cuddle when I miss him. He told me that my puppy would keep me company while he's away, how thoughtful. 

Now I just hope that I manage to hang in there, be strong, and keep busy until I see him again on September 20th.

 

Finding Happiness.

Well I have a new job, hopefully soon I will be all caught up with my bills. What a relief that will be. I will finally be able to get a new laptop soon as well, and a new bed, and an ipod as well. Oh the many joys of realising money will soon no longer be a huge stress. Rent, and utilities, and food will finally be easy thing to pay for, and I'll have money for the rest of my bills, and be able to save up for things I want, and trips, and actually be able to just have savings set aside for possible rainy days. I feel so much better now.

Finally get to see a surgeon for my gallstones as well, my consultation is on the 8th of this month, so on Thursday, then I will finally have a surgery date, oh happy days, it seems as though all things are coming together, so much to be thankful for at the moment.

On a slightly less happy note however, my boyfriend is sick with a bad chest infection and with only 12 days left until his five week Korea trip, I am finding it hard that I can't be spending this time with him, however the important thing is that he gets plenty of rest and gets rid of this chest infection. Hopefully soon he will be feeling himself again, leave my boyfriend alone infection. Haha!

I have been seriously thinking over the idea of finding a Scottie I can adopt/buy as I do really want one, but not sure what I will be doing there quite yet. I was looking today but it seems nearly impossible to find Scottie's in the area I am living in at the moment, so in any case I will have to wait. 

I have also decided that the trip I am going to take will be in Ireland, and England. Mainly I'll be stopping over in England so I can visit with my friends and catch up, also I do love my England, and missing it terribly. But I would also love to visit a Country I have never been to and since Ireland is so close to England, and I have always wanted to go, I shall!

That's it for now, be back another day.