I've been feeling miserable the past few weeks, and I'm sick and tired of being in that sort of mood. OK so my plan is to forget those who have misjudged me, they don't know me as well as I hoped and thought that they did, and they sure don't know me as well as I know myself. Now when I say forget them, I don't mean I am cutting them out of my life that's just ridiculous.
What I should have written rather was let go of what they've said and move on. Life is never going to be perfect I'm very much aware of this fact, and I do realize that it's going to be a constant battle for me to get the things I want out of life, which is OK. That's what is going to help me learn more, and more as I carry on in life, and that's just the way it goes.
So my promise to myself is to just let go. Focus on me, and my happiness, and don't worry so much about what everyone else is saying about me. That being said, the relationships I do have with people mean a lot to me, so I'm not trying to say that peoples opinions don't matter to me, I just refuse to continue carrying the negativity, it's not doing me any good. So if anyone has anything nice and positive to say to me I'm all ears. But just be warned if you say something negative about me, I will shut it out, and fully ignore that you've even said something. Selfish? Rude? Maybe, but I just don't care anymore.
It feels like my happiness doesn't belong to me anymore, and this is going to be my way of taking it back. After all it is me and only me that should decide how I feel about things.
Sunday 17 November 2013
Monday 11 November 2013
Back to Familiar Places
Hello All,
I've decided to come back to dear old blogspot. Now I have nothing against wordpress, but thought if I'm going to carry on with my blogging adventures, I'd like to come back to this nice familiar blog, that I started with, this is where my blog began, and I feel that it should end (not today, but in the FAR future one day).
Most of you, or all of you should know by now that Dave and I have gotten back together. We had a nice 2 or 3 week break from our relationship, where we built a foundation of friendship which was muchly needed. I'd go into further details about things, but I want to try and keep my relationship as personal as I can from now on. I know it's ok to talk about it, but I also now no longer feel the need to share every single detail with everyone. The relationship is between me and him, and I'd like to keep it that way. All I am going to say is that things are wonderful and we are very much in love!
Moving on from my relationship status, I believe most or all of you also know that I lost my job last month and have recently started working at Second Cup as a barista. I hate every single second of my new job, and although I know I've only had four shifts, I really don't like the fact that I'm now back at the spot of forcing myself out of bed to go to a job that I hate just so I can pay my bills. I sincerely hope that something with a better pay, and that I will find more enjoyable comes my way soon. I have been applying for a lot of bilingual jobs, trying to use my French to my advantage but so far am having no luck there.
The game plan for next year is to get my GED, take either an Admin course or a Dental Receptionist course (I had my mind set on Dental Receptionist, but am now starting to think Dave is right and that I can do something more with my Bilingualism...Bilingualism, is that even a word?!), and take Driver's Ed to finally get my drivers licence. Dave and I also want to take a first aid course together, and at the end of February we'll be heading to Vegas for four nights, courtesy of Dave's lovely parents, all of his family will be coming, and his brother Stephen will be getting married during our time there. I'm so excited about the trip and cannot wait to go. Needless to say I'm actually very much looking forward to 2014 and I hope that it's actually going to be as good as I'm planning it to be.
That's all for tonight, I should probably get some shut-eye, have to work in the morning!
I've decided to come back to dear old blogspot. Now I have nothing against wordpress, but thought if I'm going to carry on with my blogging adventures, I'd like to come back to this nice familiar blog, that I started with, this is where my blog began, and I feel that it should end (not today, but in the FAR future one day).
Most of you, or all of you should know by now that Dave and I have gotten back together. We had a nice 2 or 3 week break from our relationship, where we built a foundation of friendship which was muchly needed. I'd go into further details about things, but I want to try and keep my relationship as personal as I can from now on. I know it's ok to talk about it, but I also now no longer feel the need to share every single detail with everyone. The relationship is between me and him, and I'd like to keep it that way. All I am going to say is that things are wonderful and we are very much in love!
Moving on from my relationship status, I believe most or all of you also know that I lost my job last month and have recently started working at Second Cup as a barista. I hate every single second of my new job, and although I know I've only had four shifts, I really don't like the fact that I'm now back at the spot of forcing myself out of bed to go to a job that I hate just so I can pay my bills. I sincerely hope that something with a better pay, and that I will find more enjoyable comes my way soon. I have been applying for a lot of bilingual jobs, trying to use my French to my advantage but so far am having no luck there.
The game plan for next year is to get my GED, take either an Admin course or a Dental Receptionist course (I had my mind set on Dental Receptionist, but am now starting to think Dave is right and that I can do something more with my Bilingualism...Bilingualism, is that even a word?!), and take Driver's Ed to finally get my drivers licence. Dave and I also want to take a first aid course together, and at the end of February we'll be heading to Vegas for four nights, courtesy of Dave's lovely parents, all of his family will be coming, and his brother Stephen will be getting married during our time there. I'm so excited about the trip and cannot wait to go. Needless to say I'm actually very much looking forward to 2014 and I hope that it's actually going to be as good as I'm planning it to be.
That's all for tonight, I should probably get some shut-eye, have to work in the morning!
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