Bad at This.

It seems to me that every time I promise myself I'll be more attentive to blogging the gap between blogs grows bigger...but I could also be imagining that. I do know however that I'm bad at this whole blogging thing. Something to try and keep on working at...here we go yet again; I am promising myself to do this more often...dun, dun, dun!

Today has been an exceedingly good day. I'm in a fabulous mood, and although things are most definitely not going the way I want them to in my life at the moment; as every day passes I'm becoming more and more aware that it's OK to let all of the small little things, be what makes you happy. And I do like to say "keep on smiling" so that's another thing I am going to try and work at more...smiling.   

This afternoon was spent with a very lovely co-worker. I'm glad to have made a new friend that I have so much in common with and who gets my crazy nonsense. We went and saw Maze Runner, which was AMAZING by the way, and I highly recommend it. Now I have to admit it’s one of those books you tell people you've read...only in reality it’s a book you've been meaning to read...so after the movie I decided I needed to purchase the book. I figured if the movie was that good, and so intense; the book HAD to be even better...as books tend to always be in these cases. 

However as I'm still only half way through my Insurgent book (distracted/lazy/can't be bothered) reader of late I'm not even sure when I'll get around to giving Maze Runner a read. But I am determined to finish the Divergent series before I pick up Maze Runner. And that is what I shall do. Starting tonight I must read for at least one hour a day...can I do it? I better because I truly like the idea of being my usual avid reader again.

I hope that you are all having a lovely September, I cannot believe it’s already so close to October. This month has been flying by...where did September go?! 

As autumn is my FAVORITE season...I leave you all this picture of my fall display plate that I put together tonight (about an hour ago).

Until Next time,

Keep on Smiling :)

Keep On!

Sometimes in life things don't go the way we planned and we have to learn to pick up the pieces left behind by the many things we fail at in our lives. But the most important thing that we can do for ourselves is to carry on, to keep trying, to refuse to let that failure win, to stare down our bad luck and unhappiness and tell them "Not today!" To make sure that no matter how far away happiness may sometimes feel we never fully let go of it. May we always hang on tight to a small corner of happiness and keep on tugging until we manage to find it again!

Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)

Letting Go.

The past few days of living on my own have left me with far to much time to myself. Don't get me wrong. I love knowing that its my apartment, that I only have to clean up after myself, and that I at last have my own space, and its making me feel so grown up. However me being alone all of the time isn't a great thing. Me and my brain aren't very good to each other when left alone, haha. I must sound a bit insane right now but its the only way I really know how to put it.

David and I have remained friends as planned, and have spent some time together this weekend, he was even kind enough to come over today for a few hours so that I wouldn't be alone all day. The hours spent alone are ok if I manage to keep myself busy with dishes, or setting things up, but I can't seem to focus on things like shows/movies, and reading for very long. 

Then just all of a sudden I decided I need to just snap out of it. I need to just focus on myself as an individual and stop worrying about everything else. Yes I'm single, yes it's lonely, but how on earth did I manage all of those years alone without David, if I feel I can't now? The truth is I can! David hasn't even left my life and I am very grateful that he's still here for me. Its different, but he's a good friend and no matter how hard things are at the moment I wouldn't change him still being around for anything.

Time to focus on me, and what I want to do with my life, and stop worrying so much about being alone. It's OK, and things will one day be better!

Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)

Hard to Let Go

This is one of the hardest blogs I have ever written. I wasn't sure rather or not I even wanted to write it or not, but I clearly opted into writing it as a means to let SOME of the things go. This weekend was a very hard, and very personal one. I will not be giving all of the details but just a few words to explain what's happened, how I am feeling, and my plan to move on.

Earlier my boyfriend and I had a very lengthy and emotional chat. I love him very much, and as you may all know the year of our relationship was not the easiest and smoothest road, but we fell in love, and tried to make things work. Unfortunately sometimes no matter how much you love someone a romantic relationship with them just doesn't work. This is the conclusion my boyfriend (who I guess is actually no longer my boyfriend) and I came to tonight. Laying all of the super personal little details aside (yes I realize this entire blog is about something personal, but certain things I definitely want to keep to myself) the fact of the matter is there is such a thing as being too opposite. Yes they say that opposites attract but when you and your partner are very far from being similar it leaves little chance that you want the same things, and sadly we just don't. I do still love him and care about him very much. He is a good, kind man who has been here for me through a very tough year. I hope that we can in fact remain friends as we plan, and that he will always be a part of my life.

Saying goodbye to someone you love is never easy. I believe I am finding it especially difficult because he was my first love, my first serious relationship, the first man who ever made me feel this way, and whom I wanted to be the last man that I loved, but first loves don't always pan out, and for those of you who were ever so lucky enough to find the right person on their first go, I applaud and congratulate you. That is something very special!

Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)

Moving.

Hello everyone,

I am so sorry that it has been ages since my last update. I meant to blog so much more often than this, this year however just haven't been doing so. I wish I had an excuse but I really don't have one. Anywho moving on...

Quite literally actually (haha I tried to make a joke...I'm not funny am I?)
My lease for where I am currently living is up at the end of the month. I'm cacking my pants, as I need to be moved out on April 30th yet all apartments will only let you move in on May 1st and I still haven't managed to find anything. The major reason behind this is because I've not got enough money in my savings to currently say "YES I WANT THIS PLACE" I nearly have enough money for the damage deposit of the place I am going to view on Monday morning, but find myself still a bit short, and this is making the apartment search quite stressful.

Yes I am a girl who loves to shop, and treat myself to such things as Booster Juice and books, and yes obviously clothing as well. This is NOT the reason I do not have enough money in my savings. That being said yes I have treated myself to these things recently buuuuut what can I say?!

I will have exactly enough money to secure an apartment (well I'll have money left over as well) on my next payday which is not until April 23rd. Here's to hoping it all transitions smoothly.

Until next time,
Keep on Smiling :)

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Health.

Today's Food Log:
Breakfast - Two Pomegranate Raspberry Greek Yogurt's & 1 Sweet & Salty Almond Granola Bar
Lunch - Cheese Bagel toasted and lightly buttered and another granola bar
Dinner - Salad with Balsamic Vinaigrette (Cucumber, Tomato, Cilantro, Red Onion)
Snack: Yet another Almond Granola Bar
Beverages - 2 cups of water, Almond Milk, Apple Juice, and 1 Chillate.

Today's Workout:
15 Minute Walk
20 Crunches
15 Push-Ups
20 Squats
10 Lunges per leg
10 Side Lunges per leg
15 Push-Ups
Plank Hold (1 Minute)
Side Plank Hold (1 Minute per side)
Skater Hops:
Stand on your right foot with your right knee bent, left leg lifted behind you. Lower your body into a squat, then jump to the left, landing on your left leg and bringing your right foot back behind you (keep it hovering off the ground). Pause in the position, then jump back onto your right foot, bringing your left foot bent behind you. Repeat this movement for one minute.

Staying Focused.

Staying focused is something I have always seemed to have an issue with and as of the late that hasn't changed. I planned on beginning a work out regimen on Friday but because I was tired after a long week of work, and had my boyfriend round for the weekend, I sort of failed. 

Needless to say when my boyfriend headed home this afternoon I decided it was time to take action, and actually work out. The 10 lbs I have managed to gain after my surgery will not melt away on their own so at last today (only just finished my workout about 10 minutes ago) I did the workout I had set up for myself on Friday. It only took me a total of 11 minutes to complete but I am still proud of myself for actually going through with it.

1. Plank (I held it for a total of 1 minute, go me!)
2. Downward Facing dog (Held for 30 seconds, I hate that yoga position it kills my calfs)
3.  Knee to Elbow Crunches, from the Downward Facing Dog position (15 reps per leg)
4. Lunges (15 Reps per leg)
5. 20 Squats
6. 20 Toe Taps
7. Kickbacks (10 Reps per leg)
8. 30 Second Squat Hold
9. Side Leg Lifts (15 Reps per side)
10. Side Plank Lifts (15 Reps per side)

That concludes the workout I did today, now it is time for me to chug a nice bottle of water, and have a shower. I was planning on walking to Wal-Mart for some eggs and other tid-bits later but I think I shall skip that as I really don't need eggs that badly.

Hope you all had a lovely weekend!
Until next time, keep on smiling :)

Journey's

Life is a very confusing journey at times, but I guess that's just the way it goes. Emotions and feelings aren't things we can just shrug off nor are they things we should let control everything we do though. That's something I need to keep on telling myself lately. It's ok for me to feel the way I do, because that's just the way I feel, and I can't change it, however I cannot let it control me.

Anyways, I think I am going to say goodbye to the youtube world, it is something I have put a lot of thought into and considering the last video I made on my own personal channel was I believe a good two years ago anyways, it didn't seem that big of a deal. I will however miss TwoPotterGirls, it was a way of me being able to connect with my friend Lucy between the distance, but I am sure our friendship can survive without youtube, and I truly hope that it does. I am not going to say that I am closing the door on youtube forever because I don't know that I am, but for now at least I think its safe to say goodbye. 

Blogging is something I really want to start focusing on more. I have quite a bit going on this year, so it may actually be possible for me to successfully keep up blogging. That being said I have no idea how often I will actually be doing this, I do just know that I want to start doing more of it!

First things first is the upcoming Vegas trip in just 18 days, after which I plan on taking a first aid course, and finally getting my GED. I was going to take my GED Exam this month however with my funds even more pressed than usual because of the upcoming trip I have put it on hold until March or April. I will also be taking Drivers Ed this year and finally getting my license, I have my learners license already but its time I start driving. I am so fed up with public transportation. 

I will hopefully pass my GED exam and get the certificate after which I plan on enrolling in an Administrative Assistant course come fall. Fingers crossed all goes to plan. It will keep me very busy this year but I'm pretty happy with this plan of action to get my life on track!

Until next time, keep on smiling! :)

Personal.

I think  in life we often think that everything has to go a certain way. I know at least I do, I did. It may seem sad to say that although I had gotten used to nothing going my way, every time it didn’t I felt defeated. I’m nearing my 25th birthday and for the first time in my life I realized its ok, its ok not to have the answers for everything, its ok to be afraid, what isn’t ok is to let your fear define everything you do. A lesson learned perhaps some would say too late in life, but everyone grows up in different ways, and just because I’m 24 it doesn’t necessarily mean I have let go of my childhood, and truth be told I haven’t. That is one of my fears, allowing myself to be the adult I am supposed to be. I know I am no longer a child, or even a teenager, but I still don’t feel ready to be an adult, and the fear of letting go of that strange in-between stage I am stuck in, is hard; but I know that it is time, time to be an adult, time to just let go and live my life. Fear is not going to rule me any longer. 

A New Year

So it is now officially 2014. I have a lot planned for this year and I just hope that in the end it all works out. Next month I will be writing my GED exam and at the end of February my boyfriend and I will be going to Vegas with his family.

I will also hopefully be able to find a better paying job soon, and hope to take drivers ed this year.I also plan on taking a course in school come the fall and I will be turning 25 in April, which just seems insane. How am I 25 already?! The years sure do fly by.

That is all for now but I should be back with some more blogs this year.

Happy New Year everyone! :)