Personal.

I think  in life we often think that everything has to go a certain way. I know at least I do, I did. It may seem sad to say that although I had gotten used to nothing going my way, every time it didn’t I felt defeated. I’m nearing my 25th birthday and for the first time in my life I realized its ok, its ok not to have the answers for everything, its ok to be afraid, what isn’t ok is to let your fear define everything you do. A lesson learned perhaps some would say too late in life, but everyone grows up in different ways, and just because I’m 24 it doesn’t necessarily mean I have let go of my childhood, and truth be told I haven’t. That is one of my fears, allowing myself to be the adult I am supposed to be. I know I am no longer a child, or even a teenager, but I still don’t feel ready to be an adult, and the fear of letting go of that strange in-between stage I am stuck in, is hard; but I know that it is time, time to be an adult, time to just let go and live my life. Fear is not going to rule me any longer. 

A New Year

So it is now officially 2014. I have a lot planned for this year and I just hope that in the end it all works out. Next month I will be writing my GED exam and at the end of February my boyfriend and I will be going to Vegas with his family.

I will also hopefully be able to find a better paying job soon, and hope to take drivers ed this year.I also plan on taking a course in school come the fall and I will be turning 25 in April, which just seems insane. How am I 25 already?! The years sure do fly by.

That is all for now but I should be back with some more blogs this year.

Happy New Year everyone! :)