This is one of the hardest blogs I have ever written. I wasn't sure rather or not I even wanted to write it or not, but I clearly opted into writing it as a means to let SOME of the things go. This weekend was a very hard, and very personal one. I will not be giving all of the details but just a few words to explain what's happened, how I am feeling, and my plan to move on.
Earlier my boyfriend and I had a very lengthy and emotional chat. I love him very much, and as you may all know the year of our relationship was not the easiest and smoothest road, but we fell in love, and tried to make things work. Unfortunately sometimes no matter how much you love someone a romantic relationship with them just doesn't work. This is the conclusion my boyfriend (who I guess is actually no longer my boyfriend) and I came to tonight. Laying all of the super personal little details aside (yes I realize this entire blog is about something personal, but certain things I definitely want to keep to myself) the fact of the matter is there is such a thing as being too opposite. Yes they say that opposites attract but when you and your partner are very far from being similar it leaves little chance that you want the same things, and sadly we just don't. I do still love him and care about him very much. He is a good, kind man who has been here for me through a very tough year. I hope that we can in fact remain friends as we plan, and that he will always be a part of my life.
Saying goodbye to someone you love is never easy. I believe I am finding it especially difficult because he was my first love, my first serious relationship, the first man who ever made me feel this way, and whom I wanted to be the last man that I loved, but first loves don't always pan out, and for those of you who were ever so lucky enough to find the right person on their first go, I applaud and congratulate you. That is something very special!
Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)
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