The past few days of living on my own have left me with far to much time to myself. Don't get me wrong. I love knowing that its my apartment, that I only have to clean up after myself, and that I at last have my own space, and its making me feel so grown up. However me being alone all of the time isn't a great thing. Me and my brain aren't very good to each other when left alone, haha. I must sound a bit insane right now but its the only way I really know how to put it.
David and I have remained friends as planned, and have spent some time together this weekend, he was even kind enough to come over today for a few hours so that I wouldn't be alone all day. The hours spent alone are ok if I manage to keep myself busy with dishes, or setting things up, but I can't seem to focus on things like shows/movies, and reading for very long.
Then just all of a sudden I decided I need to just snap out of it. I need to just focus on myself as an individual and stop worrying about everything else. Yes I'm single, yes it's lonely, but how on earth did I manage all of those years alone without David, if I feel I can't now? The truth is I can! David hasn't even left my life and I am very grateful that he's still here for me. Its different, but he's a good friend and no matter how hard things are at the moment I wouldn't change him still being around for anything.
Time to focus on me, and what I want to do with my life, and stop worrying so much about being alone. It's OK, and things will one day be better!
Until Next Time,
Keep on Smiling :)
